"Solo" -- Old Poetry by Me

The thoughts of my restless night

5:46am-7:08am

Listening to the beat of: Han Solo-ft Syko, by Mac Dre

            18…the thought of it alone leaves me to reminisce my past. I remember the years, the tears I have shed because of family that have died, the friend's I have lost because some died and most lied. Dreams as a kid and thoughts as a young teen goin thru life just waitin to have his own life without rules of anotha…restricted no longer by my motha. I come to realize that even after all that is gone I still have the entire world to deal with but it's koo…mom neva raised no fool…

            I picture my life like a rainy day in New York. With so much goin on that people don't see, and with there being so many things people don't need to see that when it gets done rainin it's…all over. The rain resembles the thoughts that go through my head. Deep thought surrounding me as I sit in the hammock and watch the rain…time to myself to think about everything I've ever been through or never had time to reflect on. People need more moments like that where they can really get lost in deep thought remembering how far they have come and what they have been through. Someone told me before that if I don't remember where I been then how would I know where I'm goin…I guess that's jus anotha reason why I reflect. Not all rainy days are bad and sad…it just makes some of us look back at things we forgot about, and some things we never thought about. I need a rainy day.

            It really is true what they say though. Going through life you can't rely on people. Some can help you and some can hurt you but you have to be the one making the decisions. If it's your life then live IT not theirs. Quit tryna be what u see on TV. Stars and celebrities don't always have it good. Famous lifestyles are nothin like the hood. Unique minds are what we need now. With so many people that want the same thing like dread-heads and the common values of a nigga, it leaves no reason to wanna fill their heads with what really goes on. If all you do durin high school years is go to functions, buy new shoes and clothes, and smoke weed or drank wit "friends" then u got anotha thing comin. I'm no leader in this because everybody can see the way out of their own future if they wanted to. I'm not the one to sit here and explain why and how some people end up this way or what they'll do to ya. Just let them think back, and have them realize what they did in the past…have them see through that lookin glass for a chance. They will know what to do in the future…have a rainy day…